keep on walking

I went hiking with A in malibu. I said god bless me, it’s so nice. I jump around so much, I was so happy. I never been here.. I saw snake, I wanted catch it. I saw gecko and wonder if he’s saving money. Hello nature. I ate power bar, wanted to vomit. She was wine member and told me she hate when ppl are all that. I wonder if I think I’m all that. I do. note to myself. do not say I’m all that. just think I’m all that, because I like her. I wanted to buy her chocolate covered cherry too but she said it’s over priced so I bought one for myself. That made me sick. Came home. www.projectmichelle.com she’s gone. God? why, someone like her has to go? I don’t know. I don;t know her but I wish I could have shown her the gecko I saw today. It moved so fast. and the trees. it was so pretty. she will never ever see it anymore. she’s gone. 

I’m so selfish, because I can’t see my mom when I want to, I’m not booking every gig, I don’t own house yet. I don’t know what it is to be in relationship, I can’t write, I am this, I am that.

I just hope her last days were peaceful. She’s up there with god now. Sorry guys. I don’t mean to be sad here, but I just have to let this out.