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I have this strange fever and cough last 2 days, I think my body is not used to long drive( san diego, long beach, downey) everyday. It was blessing because all the gigs were paid but I was lil tired.( Coolest thing was opening for edwin because I always wanted to and he is like nicest guy ever! ) I think hard part of doing comedy is not everyone is good people. I go to church and started to think everyone is sweet. So I get sad lot. I always think I can make everyone happy. But I realized that drain my energy. God was showing me many things past few days and removing things from my life. I just know only way to my happiness is to read scrīpture and not lie, not steal not to commit adultry, not be drunk and honor my king.That is my shit. very rock n roll. When I do not follow that’s when everything falls apart. I used to suffer depression, self destructiveness and he took everything away from me. and I, get selfish and want temporary joy that causes me back in jail, me getting married wrecklessly, me hurting puppys. me being jamaican.

I think it is a blessing from god I have fever, and it is his protection over me. Noone is higher than him and I trust in his plan. I TOTALLY UNDERSTAND WHAT DOES IT MEAN TO BE IN TOTALLY IN LOVE WITH HIM.AGGGHH didn’t mean to bust a caps in yo ass like black people in the end. He is here.