prizes

I ate snack when I was a lil kid, it had sticker inside, that means I can get another one for free. so i end up getting 3 free snacks. That was a good time. I’m not sure why I was so soft and live my life with so much love and affectionate when I was age of 11, I should be goth and be into anarchy because everytime I experience my father leaving, it felt like someone punching me on my imaginary nuts over and over again. and that created humanm who does not like to contact opposite sex. I constantly feel” I do not belong there” and I’m overstaying( kind of feeling you stay at cheap ass motel like holiday inn, and they knock on your door at 12pm many time.) and when I feel that way, all the noise and people disappear from outside. like I can’t hear anything. I just have to go.

It sounds very poetic but I probally just have gas.

It started in college where I get kicked out

Then, Church for some reason I feel very welcomed and there is food and singing and dancing, and people in pretty hats and maybe I will live in church and that’s forever welcome.