“What Have I Done?” progress

back in september, i was working on a piece for the blue canvas launch event

in october. the piece i submitted was “riding on each others coat tails” (below)

i wasn’t satisfied with the outcome of “riding on each other’s coat tails,”

so i flipped it upside down and painted on top of it

i started to turn it into a monster of some sort -  but i thought the composition

was off so i added another canvas panel to help create a better composition

i took this panel that was apart of another painting and i painted over it

for some reason the paint color went perfectly with the other piece, so

it was effortless to put them together

i tried streamlining this design but i never felt great about it either.

i set it aside for a couple weeks, and then one day i turned it on its side

and started adding to it…again. the result:

“what have i done? (rokujyo.)”

24″x42″; acrylic on canvas panels

price: tba

this piece was inspired by character in “the tale of genji”

as the story goes, rokujyo-no-miyakasudokoro was the widow

of genji’s stepbrother. the woman suffered from jealousy, and

targeted genji’s wife. rokujyo-no-miyakasudokoro projected a

demonic phantom which possessed and killed genji’s wife,

aoi-no-ue. rokujyo was so ashamed by her terrible behavīor,

she spent the rest of her life with regret and declining health.

growing up, i was fairly violent and angry. i still have rage, but not

as much as before. when i come across conflicts, i think it is best

to assess situations, rationalize feelings, and create solutions.

sometimes, very rarely, i can become blindly angry. i see myself in

this painting. it just reminds me what i need to work on.