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In Khmer, “kru” means teacher but is culturally loaded with many other meanings. I think it stems from the Indian word that English calls “guru.” Maybe, maybe not, just my speculation. FYI, Cambodian culture is greatly influenced by Indian culture.
The “Kru” I refer to today is a spirit/guardian angel that Cambodian culture believes follows you throughout your entire life. Of course, there are things you must do to honor your “kru” but I will not get into that.
Some people have 1 “kru”,
some people have more than 1.
and some have none.
As much as I THOUGHT I had one, my dad found out that I DON’T. When my sister told me this news, many things went through my mind.
“Am I alone?”
“Am I not special?”
“How will this knowledge affect my confidence?”
“Who is it that watches me then?”
“Is the energy I feel all my own?”
“Is acquiring this knowledge not fact but a simple test from God that will push me to be better?”
I was confused, disappointed, relieved, lonely, sad, determined, empowered, angry, scared, curious, etc.
As time went on, I worried less about NOT having a “kru” and more about how determined I am to take this life on alone. That’s what I thought…
I received a check last Friday that made it possible for me to replace the last thing necessary for Dary’s wedding. Without it, I WOULD NOT have been able to do this. It is time for me to change my focus FROM everything I lack in my life TO all the priceless things money cannot buy. I realized there’s NO “kru” with me but I’m NOT alone. THERE ARE ANGELS HERE ON EARTH.
I definitely have an idea of who this check is from. I rejected a few online offers of aid but this one angel is very stubborn, I don’t know how she was sure it would reach my hands the way it did but it did.
Dary and John says Thank You and I say thank you for being stubborn but please please please don’t do it again.
"One day I will die SO today I will eat." –D.Y.
