she who always seems so happy in the crowd.... it's a crazy business

it has been awhile now....

my voice is still struggling a bit. it comes and goes.

the more I try to mend it , the worst it gets...

I know under the spotlight I look like I'm ok, I'm fine

but just like any performer, or in fact anyone, we are always our biggest critic, and biggest enemy

I know it's all psycologic, becausde the doctor syas it's fine....

welll I was ok, in fact i was good. but then I keep thinking that I'm not good enough and wanna improve and now..... it gets worse.....

Sigh..... Dun worry i know I'll be fine just .... wanna share with you guys that performers are human being too.... we are in fact very vulnerable but due to work, no matter what the show must go on and we gotta pull it off.... well just part of the game

therefore all your support really means a lot to me  and I'd really like to thank you all :>

' she who always seems so happy in the crowd,

 whose eyes can be so private and so proud

no one's allowed to see them when they cry,' ~ She by Elivs Costello

it might be a crazy business, but the craziest thing is , 'WE ALL LOVE BEING IN IT and THIS IS OUR LIFE' LOL