Red Light, Green Light

I grew up as a Christian.

I knew the Lord since I was little, but it wasn’t until 3 years ago that I fell “in” love with God.

After I went through a dark period in my life and got healing, I was struck with the commandment to love the Lord with all my heart, mind, soul and strength. I knew all along I could say, “I love God,” but then I kept wondering what did it really mean. To love an invisible being. To love something that seemed so abstract and intangible. Or even worse, to say that I loved a MAN named Jesus Christ. All these questions ran through my head, and I really really really wanted to know.

God, what does it mean to be “in” love with you?

After having a few sessions of inner healing, and spending a lot of time in worship and prayer, one day God just absolutely ambushed me.

I remember distinctly one day I was riding a scooter and stopped at a red light. And again I was asking the same thing. What does it mean to be in love with you God? It was there, while waiting at a red light, I felt God’s spirit fall on me. I don’t know how else to explain it, but it felt like God’s peace just came tumbling down. After the light turned green, I rode off wiping away the tears in my eyes and just knowing without a doubt that I was absolutely “in” love with God.

Since then my life has never been the same. Instead of a wobbly dramatic roller coaster ride with God, I can honestly say that it’s been much steadier. Do I still stumble? yes. But it is so much less, and if I do, I just get right back up and keep loving the Lord.  Growing up as a Christian, I spent a lot of time knowing what NOT to do. Since the time I fell in love with God, it’s  been about knowing him more.

Like a horse with blinders, as your focus is on Jesus, the temptations of the world won’t seem as alluring.