not happy to be home

i am back in la. got in two days ago.  left everyone behind...sisters, bro, mom, cousins, uncle, nieces, godson, my twin nieces/my babies, everyone...and i'm back here in la, upset that i'm so far away...i had to come back cuz they had a slasher schedule, then they rescheduled but it was too late to change the flight and well whatever...i'm here.  they're there.  i miss everyone. i miss hk...i had a great time shooting with t and kit.  i was so worried about the cantonese and perfecting it along with the acting, and when it came time, we all just...it was just great, i loved the experience and am so grateful to have had it...thank you kit and t...and i met new friends, jane, who was so awesome...sometimes i just feel like, why am i here?  but i guess i should be happy with what i have going on in la right now...it's just, it's always hard when i first leave...i always miss...am sad... i want to go back to hk soon.  very soon.  like next month soon.  the slasher is supposedly starting mid month.  who knows?  this business is crazy.  how to stay sane? 

was so happy with my family for new year's...we went to disneyland, with all of the kids, then came back and partied and got a bit crazy foolish, dancing around, having a great time...i love my family...i love my cousins, they all rock.  of course my sisters and my brother rock.

it's the new year...i should start off happier, and look forward to good times, happy experiences, adventure...seeing them again...making it a point to go see them.  it's most important.  always...i hope that they're all having fun together in shanghai...i miss them lots and lots...i hope everyone's holidays were wonderful and that the new year is filled with promise...take care