-Know yourself- It's funny how acting can break down all the parts you thought that were part of you and made you look for all the missing puzzle pieces. Well, of course it's not funny at the very beginning, it hurts. It hurts so much you thought you no longer understood who you really are. Yet it's very true that there will never be a moment when you can truly know exactly who you are, because you are changing, constantly, without yourself knowing. With each time you try to approach the character, you learn something new about yourself. Either you suddenly realized you have never really known yourself or you discovered something that was very amusing to you, about you. This time, I encountered a girl who seems so much like me and the previous character I was. I tried really hard to find the difference yet I failed miserably. It was so frustrating I actually broke into tears the moment I stepped into the house. So many "what if"s and "I can't"s ran in my brain. I was really worried because I didn't see much improvements. And the more I'm worried, the worse I performed. Then I figured I have been demanding too much. It's going to be just my second time on stage, how do you expect yourself suddenly turning into a pro? Acting needs training, acting needs experiences, acting needs life experiences, and these are not something you can rush to obtain. (Well you also need talent which I don't really have much but oh well). Take your time and learn the most of it. That's the way it goes. Another thing I realized was I didn't know how to be scared or look scared. To be exact, I do t really know how to be feminine. Then one day when I was on my way out to somewhere, it clicked and BAMB. "You are afraid of being fragile in front of people. You like to make yourself strong and tough because you feel embarrassed to be scared, to look weak, to seek help and to do anything girly. But it's okay to be girly, you are a girl dude-,-" So last time I learnt to be decent and proper, this time I need to learn to be a girl. After all, acting is not so much about the result but more about the process, right? Come watch!

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