I have so much i want to write about,
What the storm had taught me after distillation of whole process...
the night my son sit still while watching 'the day the earth stood still' alongside with me...
yeah..i have a son!!
I was crusing 25km/hr all the way home on those small streets.........
I was the driver for my EX and daughter to downtown for final Chirstmas shopping spree,yet EX has this unpredictable chronic sickness that came up which stopped the shopping just 45min into the Mall. Young Daughter of course not mature enough too understand the seriousness,Ex has this guilt that drives her to blame herself for not being healthy enough to hold up....U could imagine....first it was silence.....in the car....then exchange of 'what meant good but emotional sentences...not conversation'. I was in the midst....i was praying.........my eyes were on the road..my mind somewhere but nowhere.......... Yeah I had a daughter too.......!!!
Upon safety arrival.....said goodbye.....need to get out of emotional crossfire....cos I dont know how to handle....love to...but cant....there i see limitations of man....of myself.
Wanted to see a movie.....escape.....medication....diversion........
1)Curious case of Benjamin Button 2)Yes Man 3)Doubt 4) 7 pounds
anyone will do,....but they are all 40-45min away from next showing......'Thats' ok' said myself
Went into Chapters-Like Barnes n Nobles in the states.....for 10-15mins...
decided to go home....i thought I would enjoy a more action packed,activities filled , different from weekdays saturday....Wrong....i was heading back to my car.....it was like 120ft in distance....i was humming a nice tune....created as I walked towards my car....it was beautiful, I think I believe 95% of beautiful melodies were never recorded either there is no devices,not it is meant to be....it sounded clearly within my head and ears....and I liked it.
Once i was in my car.......my mind was quiet.....from Main roads i entered the small streets,where my 25 km/hr crusing speed started.......it lasted around 15mins.....
then come this striking ideas...2 questions
1)If u were be able to pick any brand U could and U had unlimited spendingon it for free....what would that brand name be??
2)If U were only allowed to pick 1 dish/1 selection of food /or 1 combo to be your only food for the rest of your life, every single meal....what would that be???
They just popped up like this....
i love this ridiculous pop ups.....it was illogical....impossible....
i had the answers right away myself in no time...
These pop ups may well define who we really are.......if we were to answer seriosuly.
Too much i experienced just these 2 days...to write them all out....probably not...
but i did follow my heart to write just these....no more no less.
Hope it didnt ruin your weekend and Christmas mood....
j
p.s. I saw a father, a eX-dept head,someone who has much social reponsibility along with his job,potraying good family man all these yrs, ...a young actress/host that i knew of ,her hand was tightly hold against his arm shopping in a Shoes store in that Mall that I only spent 45mins.....he saw me, i aw him........as if nothing had happend.....his wife/his kids...probably busy decorating home for Christmas........
a journey of feeling content. Everyday i pray this little prayer sometimes with my eyes closed sometimes not..... let me be real let me be honest let m