Do you think life is...?

Recently I have been pondering my future, I think about my family, my friends, my goal, my dream and my life in general.

It seems that the more I questions I ask myself, the more ambiguous my mind is, and the more vulnerable and incapable I feel I am. When you try to plan your future and you feel scared because it looks so vague and questionable, it really makes you feel a little uneasy.

I am not sure if anyone of you has this feeling before, sometimes when you really want to get a hold of something, you always fail to get it, and the harder you try, the more painful the outcome is. It especially makes you feel sad when you see that it is so difficult for you to get something you want, and then another person who doesn't have a very strong desire of that thing get it easily without a hassle.

Well, it does sometimes happen to me the other way around too, there are things I don't really expect to get, but I get it without much trouble, while I know some people who try very very to get it but end up in vain.

So I guess life is fair sometimes, but properly just not always at the right time...