suicide & redemption.

I spent my entire Sunday filming another short film, where I play the lead character, Liza, a girl who kills herself & regrets it later. She then has to redeem herself so as not to suffer for all eternity.

I’m looking forward to the final product, because the filming took a lot from me. It was a highly emotional & tiring film. Emotional not in terms of crying, because I’m not good at crying scenes yet, but because of the subject matter. Death & the thought of jumping off the ledge (even though I’m scared of heights!).

The night before, I was considering my role. And feared that I would really throw myself off the ledge. Haha. Especially in the midst of the 7th lunar month – even though I don’t believe in ghosts. But the shoot drained a lot out of me.

The awesome crew I got to work with

My Co-actor & friend, Sylvester, who recommended me for this role.

He knows the characters I play well – always dark, always seeking for hope.

Liza – rebellious & abused.

Jumping off the ledge – I did my own “stunt”.

But not before they laid a mattress for me.

Action movies – here I come! Haha.

We adjourned to another location, where I interacted with another character, a girl who was trying to commit suicide.

And while the director was setting up the shot, we were playing around. Good-naturedly, of course.

It was an enjoyable experience. But I’m in search of more acting projects. Had a conversation with a friend who advised me to go to Taiwan soon, since that is my dream. Hmmmm….But I know that I cannot just fly there on a whim. I need to plan first.

If I fail to plan, I plan to fail.

Someone said that I need an agent before I go there. But I know that “If it is to be, it’s up to me.”I know I need to plan, but what should I plan to do?