Let’s see if I can do a brain dump…minds been so constipated & uninspired!

Still stuck in my insomnia mode! Not the best thing to go through especially when I have to sit in an office to actually work the next day. My daily sleep pattern has been out like a light at 12am or 1am, sleeping for 2hrs, up for 30mins, sleep for 2hrs n up for 30mins. Been taking NyQuil liquid cough syrup was the only thing that helped me sleep during the month of October but all good stuff must come to an end….n my end was I ran out.

My 10min short walk to work's iPod play list now consist of LOUD music that causes major brain damage because of the brain jiggle. I have now label my play list as “Brain Cell Killing Music, which consistes of ‘Beat It – Fallout Boy’, ‘Fight For You Right to Party – Beastie Boys’, ‘Given Up – Linkin Park’, ‘I Don’t Care – Fallout Boy’, ‘Love Lockdown – Kanye’, ‘Paper Planes – MIA’, ‘Smooth Criminal – Alien Antfarm’, etc. Yes, it’s a pretty weird mix of music but it’s the stuff that makes me wanna dance n move.

So if anyone has any suggestions on how I can sleep better please do let me know. N dun give me crap about counting sheep, warm glass of milk, sex, hitting my head with a hammer, blah blah blah b/c none of it would work.

Work…uumm…what can I say about work?!?! Busy, crazy, jam packed, and stressful! Sitting in the office is like sitting in an ice-box that just makes me wanna hibernate. That’s really all I hafta say about work…LOL.

My dad just came back, but only for a week. Needa spend time with him but occupied by work and other ‘things’.

Friend’s r getting married, doing the bad thing, getting knocked up n popping out kids left and right which is making me think about family. NOTE: This is not a desperate call for a relationship! Anyways, thought about finding a guy to settle down with. Not necessary to get married or have kids (still against the idea, but then again if a guy is able to sweep my off my feet and change my thoughts then I might walk down this road). N of course having said this, it would take to be in a relationship now wouldn’t it…lol…which is the main important key that’s missing to actually make it all work.

Knowing that this Christmas and New Years I’ll be alone has gotten me to think maybe I should just hide at home in my bed with the lights out, just having the glow of the TV light up my room, and order in really bad Chinese food and watch Christmas Eve and New Year celebrations on TV. Or better yet even avoid anything that would remotely remind of the romantic holiday seasons and just buy all 10 seasons of ‘Friends’ and  have a ‘Friends’ marathon, watching it from Christmas Eve till January 2 nd.

Yes, I run a sad life...hahaha