Feelin a bit down

I'm feeling a little emotional lately.  I guess there's just been a lot of stress with the show and it's all just happening so fast.  There are certain decisions that I've already made...and now I realize that maybe it wasn't the right thing to do.  Well..at the time it almost was like I didn't really have a choice and the decision was made for me...but, I know I could have spoke up...there are just too many personality traits that I have been trying to change about myself...but, certain things are just too hard to change...and I always end up just putting up with it.  I know that I need to be stronger....and sometimes I really get mad at myself for being the way I am.   It's hard for me not to want everyone to be happy...therefore, changing what I want....does this make sense? 

我有點鬧情緒，我想是因為星期六的 show ，很多事情發生得太快，而我居然更快做了一些決定... 我開始發現好像這些決定並不是最妥當的， 雖然當時我或許認為我非得這樣去選擇不可... 我知道我應該把我的想法說出來...實際上都是我自己的問題， 我知道我得改，但是又好像太難改了...我就是不夠堅強， 不能堅持到最后，選擇放棄...我真的很生我自己的氣...    往往是因為我太希望能讓每個人都高興， 所以我才改變自己的想法的...這樣做對嗎？