Proud of my girls

I'm sitting here at home just finished the final rehearsal for our big show tomorrow night.  I didn't realize how proud I was of my girls.  They have really improved so much in the last few weeks because of this showcase and if anything they are like my children to me.  hahaha..there was a point during the rehearsal where I just wanted to cry....hahaha...ok, pretty lame...but, anyways...There will be a lot of shows tomorrow night including some shows choreographed by Melodie (my fellow instructor) and by me....and I'm so proud of my girls for making and creating their own solo parts.  It just goes to show that they have learned stuff in class!  Wow...I never knew that teaching could give you such a feeling...and to see these ladies go from their shy selves into not so shy..hahaha....they really do have more confidence. 

It's funny, I've been dancing since I was 10 yrs old...but, pole dancing for only 1 yr and 4 months now.  But, through this year, this is the form of dance that has really given me more confidence as a woman...and to not be scared of my curves.  And, it's strange to connect these things..but, pole dancing has really made me more confident when I perform on stage...when I'm singing...it just makes me feel more like a woman..rather than the girl that I'm always stereotyped as in HK....and that just gets old after a while. 

What's my point? well, I just get annoyed when people get the wrong idea about pole dancing.  I have to admit when I tell people that I teach dance...and they ask the question that I dread...what type of dance?  I usually get a bit embarrassed.  I just know what they are thinking....they either think it's really cool (normally girls or gay guys) or they have it in their minds that I'm a stripper (the sleazy guys...or more close minded people)...

yes...hmm...Christian...spiritual...innocent girl teaching pole dancing...well, let me just say that you are all wrong about your perception about pole dancing.  Let me just say that it is one of the most challenging and beautiful sports I've ever learned.  And, the reason why women love it so much is because it makes them feel like a woman...it really does give women more confidence in their bodies and the way they move.  Sure, it's really hard..but, I've seen these girls really improve from feeling so shy to getting ready to perform!!!  And, even as a dancer....pole dancing has made my dances more mature....there is more to pole dancing then sexy moves...of course, there will be all that at the show tomorrow night...but, there will also be some unique and artistic dance that is more meaningful.  And the only way you'll find out is if you come and see it for yourself!

Oh...and I'd like to thank all of my friends and fans who were willing to buy their own tickets to come watch me!  Thanks for your support!  I'm actually a bit nervous..but, I'm sure having familiar faces will make me more calm..or not...hahahaha...but, thanks for showing me that you care!!!

我剛排完明天晚上的“big show”的彩排回到家裡，我這才發現自己是那麼地， 為我的那些女孩子們自豪，簡直不敢想像，就因為明天的表演節目， 在最後的幾個星期裡，她們能進步那麼飛躍，那種感覺就好像是， 她們是我的孩子那樣，哈哈哈...在這段日子裡，我曾幾乎想哭， 哈哈哈...實在有點愚蠢...當然...明天晚上有很多節目， 不只是我們的節目，還有另外一個教練 Melodie 排的節目....但是我看到我的這些女孩子， 她們把從平時在上課學的技巧中，每個人都編排了她們的獨舞部份， 真的讓我很感動... 我從來不知道自己教的課程可以給她們帶來這種感覺... 同時看著她們一個個從害羞的女孩到不再害羞， 可以那麼的自信地站在舞池中....

我從十歲開始學舞，但是跳鋼管舞只有一年零四個月的時間， 但是很奇怪的是，這年裡鋼管舞卻給我一種從未有的女人的自信.. .不再擔心我的能力，不可思議會有這種連帶關係， 現在就算是在舞台上表演，歌唱，我都會覺得自己是個女人， 而不是我這麼多年我在香港的那種一個長不大的女孩的感覺...

就因為一般的人對鋼管舞有一種“看法”， 所以以前當我告訴別人我在教鋼管舞時， 連我自己都會覺得有點說不出口...

...現在我想告訴大家，你們對鋼管舞的認識是不正確的， 實際上鋼管舞是我學過的，最有挑戰性，最美的一種運動， 當我舞動的時候，讓我對自己的身體充滿了自信... 當然這不是一個容易的運動，尤其是對那些完全沒有舞蹈基礎的人， 就算是我學了那麼多年的舞蹈，鋼管舞會讓我更性感... 當然你明天晚上來來看“ the show ”就可以證實了我這個說法.