Business and resistance...

business world says i have to get my butt out there, do shameless promotion of my body of work, not matter how many times i have thrashed it out to newcomers or followers. i put a twist to an event, hire a publicist, a business development manager (BDM...ooooo, sounds so butch), an agent and perhaps even a part-time assistant to document my photography collection, which has grown to a scary volume of dvd's of over 500. i cringe at the thought of documenting and tagging. anyone want to come and take on the job? then....the struggle and guilt of not producing my own work after reading books like 'the war of art', whereby resistance seems to take over me. to the writer, it's writer's block. to me, it's getting down to the work of painting or drawing, or finding the next suitable models to grace me with their presence. oh, how i feel like the work is so waiting for me, sitting and teasing me with it's fiery flesh of blood and beauty. resistance is laughing at me. i have not found the right model for my next project and i'm peeved. why? maybe i'm not looking hard enough. i scour the internet and books seeking inspiration and i'm envious of what others have achieve, but not really. i think i'm gonna head to the gym and sweat it out, again...