thank you superfuture

In an earlier post HERE, i talked about a website called Superfuture, where users post their outfits in a thread called What Are You Wearing Today.  Back before I started making my dorky video blogs, I decided to post some photos in waywt and boy that community is rough on noobs.

Some of my friends think it’s crazy and don’t understand why I’d subject myself to that kind of scrutiny.  In some ways they’re right.  At the same time, I’m here trying to find my voice in LA and i realize that i need to be ok with scrutiny.  Superfuture somehow felt like a safe place for me to lose anonymity.  I saw all these other interesting people putting themselves out there…and it inspired me (and still does).

Many people give you very nice, positive feedback.  But there are the few who professionally HATE.  I learned from that too.  No matter what you do in the world, no matter what you put out, there will be people who like it and there will be people who don’t.  No matter WHAT.  Everyone feels how they feel for personalized reasons.  By posting on Sufu sort of blindly, i learned this very quickly, which actually helped me to move onto the next step of making my little video blogs that I still secretly love hate myself.  Those videos then helped me to take another step and produce something bigger.  And this is just the beginning.

So…thanks sufu.  Thanks everyone who’s been cool, and thanks to the haters too.  I’ve learned from you.  Love ya’ll.  (even you jmatsu).

The reason why I write this is cuz i’m posting a fit today after a long hiatus (got a little…distracted).

[a window into my own mania:  i started writing this blog at like 4pm today and somehow psyched myself out.  i  had to step away from the computer because i started hating on my own photo.  haha.  but this is exactly why i need to just do it.  i don't know why as human beings we self-doubt so much.  but fuck it.  it's going up, damnit.]