"One Last Try"

Last week when I was in BKK, my buddy Johnny and I were jamming.

He started playing a nice guitar rift, and suddenly turned to me and said "sing something to this".

Now, mind you, I was properly tired out - it was 1am(ish), and we'd been practising for the last few hours.

So as he played, I closed my eyes and sang the first few words that came to mind...

"Sitting in the dark, I wonder how. How it came to this - where we are right now..."

And thus a song was born.

I had no premeditated idea of what the song would be about.

It simply came to be.

And as I wrote the lyrics, a memory crystallized in my mind.

2007/2008 - those were two very dark, difficult years in my life.

Part of it was due to the tragic accident in which my younger brother passed away.

But the other part of it was the fact that my "happily ever after" had becoming a nightmare.

For a long time, I struggled and fought for a marriage that just wasn't meant to be.

And even till the point where I received the divorce papers... I truly believed that we could work it out.

I've moved on since then.

I'm still a happy person - I don't place blame, nor harbour regrets.

I simply decided to give myself a happy future.

But I never wrote a swan song for my marriage.

Recently, I learned that one of my friends is going through a divorce.

Empathy immediately flooded through my veins.

Not many people my age understand what it's like....

So when I wrote this song - I wrote it for myself.

And for all the broken people sitting on the brink of a big decision - to stay, or to go.

One Last Try

Sitting in the dark, I wonder how

How it came to this - where we are right now

I remember when our love was young and we thought we could.

But now we're stuck for words and we just can't figure out...

Is this goodbyeor do we give it one last try? Is this goodbye? We cannot live a lie. Is there something different this time? Or is this goodbye? Baby is this goodbye?

"Forever" was a word we thought that we could do.

If other people can, why can't we too?

Is it really so hard for us to stay in love?

Does it have to feel like work?

Have we lost track of who we are?

Is this goodbyeor do we give it one last try?

Is this goodbye?

We cannot live a lie.

Is there something different this time?

Or is this goodbye?

Baby is this goodbye?

Leaves me cold and longing still...

for your warmth - I know I will

wonder if I leave you now...

Can I live without your love?

Or am I already living without?

Is this goodbyeor do we give it one last try?

Is this goodbye?

We cannot live a lie.

Is there something different this time?

Or is this goodbye?

Baby is this goodbye?