CRAZY LOVE

"i can hear your heart beat from a thousand miles, and the heaven's open up everytime she smiles" - Van Morrison, Crazy Lovethat's how i feel tonight. that's how i've been feeling for awhile. suddenly a lot of things in life don't really seem so bad. little things don't bother me anymore. all because of a little fuzzy feeling in your heart? how incredible? how awesome is life?many of my friends may know me as that guy who is, i quote "in love with someone else everyday". is there any truth to it? yes, i often do go on about a different girl every two weeks and i'll crush on her for a minute and use those emotions to write songs. not necessarily about the girl specifically but sometimes about the girl specifically. i don't pick random girls, i pick girls who walk by me, cause a hurricane, make me fall over and go "wow". so i do. and i wrote hundreds of songs like this. it's called an artist and his muses.i haven't been in a relationship since 2006. i've met many girls in my travels but have i gone past getting a number and a few calls? No. and i wondered why i would do this? why was i no longer excited about the idea of getting with a girl I like. was i "bitter"? that's what girls do right, get bitter but not men. so bitter was out. the conclusion from my closest friends were: not over the exi'll admit it for a year after, i was not. it was hard to get over someone so phenomenal that she had her own breeze every time she walked by me. at the time three years ago, i was younger and totally not understanding what broke us up. but i am over her. and in fact, i've gone back to being a very big fan of hers. so the ex issue wasn't it. was it my music? had i become so lost in my own songs that i had built a world and locked myself into it alone. i mean last year when i was traveling i was at home all the time writing so many songs that the only contact i had with the world was the few friends who came to visit or write together with me. love is gift from god. one that we as humans have infinite amounts of. we are capable of loving so much more and love itself is without conditions. therefore, to develop love for someone, it is a spiritual experience as it is mental. it is of the mind and of the heart. it comes with no requirements and should not require reciprocation. i've not been looking for a girlfriend because i was looking for a partner in crime. someone who would ride or die with me. someone who would help me manage my money, my life, my affairs. someone i would give the keys and security codes too. someone who i would share any and all decisions in life with but someone who had her own thing too.i'm looking for somebody who i love unconditionally. i've had seven major relationships. six painful break ups. and one extremely painful one. i always had a girlfriend from 19 till 27 and sometimes, i had a girlfriend and a couple on the side for different purposes. so it made total sense that i would focus on my career for a couple of years and make sure that i got to where i wanted to go. in fact, there were so many things that i needed to do and this time, i had no space for someone to come along for the ride. but i think i found a girl who i love unconditionally. so i told her.crazy love. it makes u do crazy things. but it's a good start. cause i'm back. back bigger and better than i ever was before.still a non smoker..and still looking at the phone to see if she would call or text...tye lee