Luck, Bad Times, Hugs, Kisses, Shitty Days and a Hot Chic.

For the last two years, I have been bogged down by a series of bad luck in my work.

It was just the coincidence of a series of unfortunate events, it was the inability to break out a mental space that I was manifesting repeatedly. It was not the coolest place to be for almost 30 months but..since early August..and a visit to a kind man a little out of Taipei has left me in an unexpected place.

To be honest, as open as I am to my spirituality, I still think I have the ability to discern what is of heaven, what is from heaven and what is absolutely total bullshit. I left the tea house where I met him, feeling curious but happy but a little doubtful of the road ahead.

That's when it all began Then it all began to happen.

I have been going through a series of synchronicities that are often not of coincidence because the messages are clear and in your face. Then things started to happen in a weird way. People who I've wanted to work with, people who i've been meaning to catch up with and even relationships have began to change.

I remember the words of this wise lao shi and I called him to tell him something was happening. If external events are not enough proof, I started changing. My bad sleeping habits disappeared and I live a normal life now, sleeping and waking at normal hours. I live a life of absolutely no fear and worry now. I feel free and liberated.

There's been something talking to me in my heart over the last couple weeks that seems to be leading me to a direction which I believe life has planned for me..

So I'm absolutely swamped with work now. Its all starting to clique. I'm busy and I love it. Not that I wasn't busy before but this busy is the kinda busy to be envious of. When u can forget how many jobs you are working on at one time, it's a nice warm way of remind yourself that you are relevant to your work.

A couple years ago, I fell into a not so nice place. But I saw it coming and it came. At that time, I didn't abandon my religious beliefs but my continuous disappointment in the church and the increasing hypocrisies that I saw among my Christian friends at that time led me to make some alterations in my life.

At that time, I met a lovely girl named Denise. When I met her, I didn't tell her too much about where I was in my life but she turned on something in me that led me on probably the most humbling human experience I have ever been through. The awakening of one's soul and one's conciousness is a priceless gift from heaven that quite honestly, I have not met to many people who have been blessed with that.

My story is moving towards an epic which I myself am completely hooked and enthrawled in. Denise let me read a book called Awakening The Buddha Within. At first, it was the most hard to understand book of simplicity but I began to realize that it wasn't the book. It was myself. I was too caught in being something I was probably not and I was too hung up in wanting success for all the wrong reasons.

In the months, that followed, my friend took me down a road that left me facing some very difficult moments and emotions and also some of the most beautiful moments in my adult life. I felt like a child again as I wondered in this new head space that she had opened me too.

In my own time, I read and read and read and spent hours debating and learning from all sorts of people who had devoted their lives to healing. I was suddenly thrown into an environment where I didn't feel comfortable cause I didn't have the previous comforts and "privileges" and I realized at the point that my friend had opened my conciousness to a new space cause I had to face another another challenge ahead. And from there, it was another 18 months to lead me here.

Time and change has left the both of us out of contact but I say a little prayer everyday and sometimes, every other moment, for the good she did in my life and feel bad sometimes I couldn't have done more for her. But we meet people for reasons we may never be able to control. We can just discover them and embrace them as is.

Today is Sunday. I got a day of work ahead that's why I'm up so early. It's Sunday. Most people chill but I got to make hot ass music. It's kinda the same thing. I'm ready to jump in to this new busy-ness and shine.

My life has completely changed after this almost three years of change and trials...my life is beginning to look like a brand new dream...