STATE OF MINE

"Hail Mary to the city your a Virgin, 

   and Jesus can’t save you life starts when the church ends"i've had a pretty challenging two weeks. But tonight when i was listening to Jay Z's new record.The line above hit me.For starters, I mean no offense with tthe above phrases religiousreferences but for me it speaks personally.I have many friends of different religions and I always respect other people's religious beliefs but I am not afraid to disagree. But that isn't the point here now.I looked up at the sky before walking in the house and in the most cliche of moments, realized how small i am. For me, life did start where the church ended. In some symbolic way, it was the beginning of the end of my naiveness. I did not imply that church made me naive but what I mean is life really started kicking in when I realized I really only got myself to trust that tomorrow is going to be like today.  While God and I are always talking, i believe this life is a long class in the topic i picked for this lifetime. I'll say this. I have come to really learn about how precious everything is in life and also to see how very thin the line between love and hate is. It's a lot of mental and emotional stress but I'm a grown ass boy and this shit is often fun because an old friend used to remind me always: it's when there is pain that you know you are alive.My good friend told me I am all over the place. But he seemed to also justify the good in that with my creativity. You are just as creative as me. You don't know it because you don't try to do what i do. I know anyone can do what i do in a minute but no one seems to want to. I'm not all over the place. In fact, my heart, mind, will and everything has always been in one place: right here...looking forward and going "we're almost there"Think about what I'm trying to say here. Let it make sense to you in your own way. But I highly doubt it will be any different from mine.Something's cooking in the kitchen again....set the table....