snapbacks n tattoo

I was thinking

When I just started comedy, I did lot’s of openmikes. people would have real nasty atitudes and brought me up as if I’m loose I’d get bothered because I never done porn or hooked up with anyone, It’s just because of my past as import model. I remember someone brought me up” next comic is asian and you can see her naked everywhere.” I was so embarrassed but I accept that made me who I am.

People judge you no matter what you do and there is always people who bring you down, and there is people like my 2 best fr...Read more

I

have to go with what makes me happy, not for my mom, not because all the advices from girl friends,not because all those rules. Because I’m new to comedy, very bad with men, work, everyone gives me an advice I kept on eating the advice and I had diarrhea ( 2days! and it was how you spell it die-arr(when I poop) hea( when I was done.) someone told me I can’t work. I did. someone told me I won’t be in relationship unless I’m healed from last relationship.  I wonder if I’m broken from last last relationship that’s why I stop letting people touch my face, beca...Read more

palm

is a gay bar I go often to perform. It was fun. I found two gay men on bar stool spinning. That is like the most adorable thing ever. I thought it was xmas. You can’t top that unless baby panda bear brings me breakfast in bed( egg bennedict) with chinese newspaper. I will tell panda, I don’t read chinese just to see him frown.  After my set I PLANED to go out. Because I need to socialized? I guess. Friday.  Then realized I have to wear dress to go and start thinking why I gotta wash my ass for people I don’t even kno and decided to take a nap-turn to in...Read more

the way

you were laying in jacuzzi wearking blue swim suit stayed on my mind and I should have taken picture of it. I said. Mom said why. So I said I miss sleeping wit you. she said she doesn’t. she talked bout her death, ( as usual) and hang up on skype because my mood is bringing her down. Someone needs parenting skillz. I want to be a duck so I follow mother bird and don’t need to worry bout pekined by others. I know now, I can never be a dictator because I’m a sensitive person. Not physically but mentally. I will be a dictator if I can send muffin basket...Read more

I think my ratio

of laughing and eating and relaxing got higher. every day lil by lil.

The other day I found myself humming.

I don’t really check time and add all the numbers and figure out what that mean in my head and I do not panic that often. I think it’s due to starch diet. When you have starch you be mad for few sec, but you let go because your brain get blocked by fat cells. I’m not this nerv wrecking nail biting cutting not eating sleeping child, I’m senior citizen. I poop so much today( how? )sometimes I have stomach problem but I’m ...Read more

I

started to scared a lil so decided to bark

note to myself

when I have kids, don’t put them in ent. industry soon because they won’t know how to deal with real shit. dancing on tv-modeling was fun but I never learn real stuff and now, I’m almost 65 years old and figuring out by myself. I think if I know how to make lasagna ( and spell) I am an adult.

I just want to work where there is redvine

today is 9-11

sat hollywood -compton 1am

sun hollywood 9-3am

mon 10-3am

Tue los amitos “gate” 9- 11

mtv and mall cures everything. I know the mall prevent cancer because it’s the happiest place on the earth. noone is sad there and you can purchase everything and that’s where I spend most of my good childhood, I do not like being alone because that’s where I spend most of my dark childhood. I’m going to los amitos with my asian homies( I have asian homies and mexican homies depends on season) right before moivng to arizona. SAD...Read more

since when

my blogs become my emotional outlet, I don’t know. I have (surprisingly ) good amount of girl friends and one male friend hughmore. I don’t have many male friends because I’m gassy. And who would fart in front of opposite sex? Not this guy. If I have male friend, I have to cut out dairy, nuts, fiber. oh I forgot D & mj I spend most of my time with. Here’s the thing. My friends are  all against my crack smoking habbit so I never told them. Smoking crack was a fun habbit I went amusement park on it, I draw picture while on crack and cooking, cle...Read more

:0 :( how?

I was excited this week because Its always cool when you get to see your favorite comic. SO COOL!

my week was not very good and god put mexicans in my life and I am over being fired. I’m over this stupid thing bout what I was excited about. over fighting with mom, I’m over being homesick and I’m over I just want to be happy while not hurting others and over everyone leaving me and over many things I just don’t underst

pancakes

banana

alone again

LA

makes you not trust anyone and makes you enjoy being alone. Something in water.