Retarded Side

Ok...so, yesterday was my first tap rehearsal for 42nd St.  The girl that was sent from Beijing to help me learn all of the routines is Qu Lin.  She is a very nice girl and we hit it off the day that she arrived.  So, in the morning Rick ( our choreographer) along with Christine (the dance captain) taught Qu Lin and me the rountine for the first number, "Audition".  We only learned the first half of the routine and I was sweatin like I never sweat before!!!  It was endless dripping!!!  Those of you who really know me, you know that I don't really sweat much.  Anyways...it is a very very tiring routine and I still have the other half of the routine to learn and get up to tempo!!!  The rest of the day Qu Lin helped me with rehearsing what we had learned that day.  I found out that my left side is totally and completely retarded!!!  We must have rehearsed for about 4 hrs!!!  I started to get frustrated with myself so I had to stop.  You know, I've always loved tap.  I've always wanted to learn more...and now I regret all these years of giving up.  But...I know why I've given up in the past...it's because of my retarded left side!!!  So....I have to start really focusing on making my left side strong enough to keep up with my right side!  It's quite frustrating..but, I'm going to try my very best.  I don't know what to expect with the other parts of the show.  It's all up in the air.  I think Rick wants to put me in some of the numbers..but, I fear that my part will be so minor that they don't really even need me up there!!!  It's such a bad situation that I'm in...and I feel so lost in the middle of all of it.  But...the only way I can make the most of it is to remember that I'm getting free tap lessons!  hahaha.....

On another note, I found a very disturbing comment on my website...  www.marshayuan.com    I haven't actually entered that website since I got this site on alivenotdead...but, today I decided to check it out..and there were actually a few comments in the site.  Someone helped me erase the bad comment but I wanted to share it because I was curious as to why people would write something so negative...

hello, just wanted to say you suck!!!

you can't sing

you can't dance

you look like a cow

you are a terrible artist!!

it's a shame that there are picture's and films and music where you are a part of in this world today, al gore has to look at you and he then will find the source of the world polution!

hopefully you will stop making songs and programs, the world would be so much better. hahahahahahahhahahahahahahahh

ps if you delete this message you are even a bigger fool!!

So, normally I would feel very upset about something like this.  But, I guess everyone has their own opinion on things, right?  Hmm...but, I think only very bitter people would find the time in their lives to write something negative about someone they don't even know.  What do you think?